I've been in quarantine for about a month now. It's been pretty boring, but I guess this is just going to be a look into how my life has been going. I came home the day before spring break officially started, but as soon as I was ready to head back home, the first case in Harris County had been confirmed. With that being said, I was already utterly terrified as to what the future might hold. I was still scheduled to work some softball games the following weekend, so I spent a lot of time working on spotter boards for that while also trying to kill time with friends here. I was supposed to leave Friday but really wanted to see my boyfriend before I left so I spent Thursday with him and his friends. That was the last time I saw anyone outside of my family. It was that night that I found out I wasn't going to be returning to Denton for the remainder of the semester. I was crushed. Since going off to college I had grown into my own person. It was someone that I was proud of. I thought what I had become reflected who I wanted to be as a person, a creator, as an individual. It was the first time that I wasn't being weighed down by my parents. I didn't have to be the perfect Asian daughter, I didn't have to say what they wanted to hear. I was my own person. Amanda Malini, separate from the parrot they raised at home. I've lost plenty of friendships due to the virus. Many of my friends from UNT can tell that I'm not the same as I was. The Amanda around her parents versus the Amanda around her friends are two different people. Even those two wouldn't get along with each other, but what am I supposed to do about it?
To pass the time I'm usually keeping to myself in my room. The less I have to interact with and be ridiculed by my parents the better. I watch a lot of old shows, musicals, movies, and play video games. Outside of class, I talk to Robert pretty frequently, but that's pretty much it. I used to go for a run or skateboard around my neighborhood, but now anything that involves going outside is revolting. That's that though, I really hope this is over soon.
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